Suicide is a real thing! Many believe, that it doesn’t affect the black community. It’s so taboo, that its rarely spoken about. More recently we’ve had suicide as a back drop in the black community when stars like Don Cornelius, Lee Thompson Young, the incomparable Chris Lighty, and the creator of For Black Girls blog Karyn Washington. More recently, Lox alumni Styles P open up about his daughter’s suicide. If you or someone you know is struggling with depression or suicidal thoughts, please do not hesitate to call National Suicide Prevention Hotline 1-800-273-8255. We are sending our prayers and condolences as Styles P and family get through this time of grief.
I rarely speak on my personal issues and i usually express my pain the through music but today I will share a little with you last month my wife and I lost a daughter and my son lost a sister . My baby girl took her life and there are no words to describe the day to day pain we have to endure and maintain through but in dealing with pain you find yourself dealing with the creator and asking questions and going through emotions most would not understand. So I’m taking this time out to express a few things to y’all because life is short and we are not promised tomorrow. I like to deal with simple math I know I am 180- 180+ but im trying my best to live on the positive side of things . I have truly tried to live up to the code of being a gentleman and gangster to fullest of my ability. I have been chasing the dollar bill since I was 12 years old I hustled I worked legal jobs and even manage to make my dream of making it as a rapper come true I have popped bottles before it was the thing to do , I have owned beamers, benzos , rovers, trucks etc etc etc I have lived in the ritz ,owned condos , houses traveled a lot of places etc etc etc but I can honestly tell you don’t none of that shit add up or equal to love!! I have lost my brother , father , aunt , grandmother in law and too many good friends/ brothers and now my daughter!!!! But the only thing that can be done is to leave it in the creators hands . But I wouldn’t be me if I didn’t take this time out to say from the most humbled part of my heart and soul to say to yall that the dream most of us chase is not !!I repeat is not !!more valuable than the love you get from your family and friends it may seem like it is but it ain’t they print money and make material shit everyday but once you used a love one that’s it the spirit is with you but you will miss the physical and Won’t be able to speak to them how you want to until you get home to the other side. So I just want to tell yall keep it family 1st and don’t get lost and lose your focus the fam is way more important than anything else …. We lost a daughter but gained an angel . Love is love ..ghost